I'm addicted to the news. Some people wake up in the morning and listen to the soothing song on the alarm radio. Others may have some quiet time or stand in the shower with their eyes closed counting the hours until they get to crawl back into bed. Not me. When my alarm goes off (and sometimes before), I roll over, grab my iPhone and start clicking on my news apps. Skimming headlines and clicking on the more creative ones that lure a reader in. On my way to work, I drink my coffee and listen to the two AM talk radio stations I have programed. When I arrive, I pull up FoxNews and leave the minimized window open in case there is breaking news. My drive home...news talk radio again. Then I fill my husband in on everything I've heard throughout the day. For those of you who know me, I like the crime reports and am drawn to the horrific stories most people try to avoid. I like being connected. I like knowing what is going on around me and around the world. Until now.
While I don't completely understand the hormone situation during pregnancy vs adoption, I've heard it is very similar. I'm hoping that is my excuse for the annoying ability to burst into tears for absolutely no reason and then continue crying because I'm frustrated for not having a reason. Or feeling like the creeper that stops in the grocery store staring at little children and dreaming that somewhere mine are experiencing the same happiness. (I cannot explain the food cravings...other than the fact that when you walk outside in Texas, you typically smell the sweet aroma of Tex-Mex and your stomach begins to talk...it's why Texans seem to know each other upon first meeting...our stomachs have been chattin it up.)
But, I am blaming my adoptive hormones on my sudden distaste for the news. I believe the news is making me have a stressful adoption. (like there is any other kind....) and this could potentially harm the waiting process. So, as of today, I'm taking an offical break from listening, watching or reading the news. I'm not sure how long this fast will last. My addiction to the news will likely make it difficult to quit cold-turkey. But, I'm determined. to make it at least one month. (We can reevaluate my hormone situation at that point.)
I do hope my friends and family around me will update me on any world disasters or crisis on a "need to know" basis. Please feel free to email or call me if WW3 starts of if someone other than Donald Trump announces their presidental running.
I will report back in one month...hopefully with a more stress-free adoption! :)
